This is actually the first note that denotes a different side of me.. the side where I wear my heart on my sleeve.. the delicate interior I've always managed to protect. I guess today is the day I have to escape from my usual self and discover something new about myself. These past few days, my mind wandered in a place I've always feared to visit.. the past. I contemplated on every aspect possible. I looked for answers.. for situations that preceded to what I have right now.. but in the end, I didn't find anything or anyone to blame.. I realized that no matter how sorry, sad, successful, painful, happy or disappointing my life turned out to be, I can't blame it on anyone because what I did wasn't demanded of me but was of my own choosing. It's not that I regret the roads I have taken. What I regret most are the roads I could have taken and would still take if given the chance. But since it's all buried in the past, all I have now are memories, chances and uncertain possibilities.
I guess it's about time to be careful of what I choose. It doesn't mean that I solely choose the roads I am expected to take or the roads I want to take. I just want to make sure that every road is worth it.
Right now, I'm in between two roads. I just don't know where to go. The road on the right assures me of a safe journey and destination.. while the road on the left seems rocky and doesn't assure me of anything yet, just the possibility of experiencing the greatest love story I could ever know.
I don't know if it's the time for me to be careful or the time for me to be brave. Either way, regrets are inevitable.Will I regret more in getting deeply hurt in the end? or in wondering what could have been?
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