If only..

"If" is uncertain.

"Only" is certain.

Put them together and they can be the most painful words your lips could ever utter.. the coldest words your heart could ever endure.

If only life was as we wanted it to be..

If only we could go back and alter the things that have greatly affected the present, we'd do it in a second.

If only.. is a mere chance.. a hopeless wish.. a shade of bitter reality.

But what can we do? Reality is all we have. It's all we have to deal with. Besides, life doesn't wait for us to heal in our own time. It simply goes on. It's totally up to us to go on with it or else, we get stuck in the past.

We all went through pain we can't seem to explain until now.. memories that simply make it hard to breathe.. If only it could go away..
But let's face it. It's something that sticks with us wherever we go. It's something kept hidden in the depth of our hearts. It's not something to be ashamed or aghast about though. These scars are what made us strong. It gave us the courage to go through life. It made us wise.

So now I start thinking.. If only..

Maybe I wouldn't trade the past for something else.. It made me who I am today.

I might not be the most courageous person to pursue love or anything in life.. but I guess I still have that little light of hope to try.. and that one hell of a strong heart to fight. And I know you do too.

So V, be strong. I may not know what exactly you're going through or what you're feeling. But I believe that the reason you went through all that is not to give up in the end,but to fight til the end. I believe in you. I always will. :)

Find yourself..
Feed your "if only"s with forgiveness and hope..
Discover things from the past..
Deal with it as well as the present..

Everything will be okay.

Take your time.

I'm just here.

xoxo

-Chia