To the Boy I Could Have Loved (November 7, 2008)

I love you..

just three simple words..

and that’s not even enough to describe how I feel about you..

not even close..

those are just words..

my feelings for you are more than that..

more than words..

more than thoughts..

more than you’ll ever know..

Ask me why I love you this much. Honestly, I don’t know.

“The heart has reasons that reason doesn’t know”.

I loved you yesterday..

I still love you today..

and I would still love you tomorrow..

and you know that if only I could, I would..

Even if life gives me a million reasons not to,

I’ll hold on to that single reason to wait..

Even if it breaks my heart to see you everyday..

missing you..

it’s better than not having to see you at all..

Even if I’d never be enough..

You’d still be more than enough for me..

You always were… and nothing can change that..

You’re not perfect, so am I..

But i love you anyway..

Even if I have to let you go..

which I really don’t want to do..

I just want you to find your way..

if not to me, to the one who will make you happy..

Your happiness means a lot even if it’s not with me..

I could have loved you..

I would still love you..

as long it’s not too late…

for the meantime, all i have to do is wait…